After spending four days laid up taking care of my daughter and then taking care of me, I really wanted today to just have some "me" time. However, this morning we all decided it was best if Mia didn't go to her dad's today and so I found myself with more time with the little one. My patience ran thin most of the day and it definitely came through. I'm fortunate that she's so awesome at listening and was able to explain to her why mommy was cranky. At 4, I told her I needed to take a little nap so she set herself up with a movie and some vegan animal cookies and promised me an hour of quiet.
That (almost) hour was so weird. The first 15 minutes felt like two hours. The next 15 minutes felt even longer. Finally I fell asleep but was woken up only about 45 minutes into my nap by her asking me if i wanted my split pea soup now that grandma was home with a can of it. I decided to get up at that point because I've had a hankering for split pea ever since Tristan Prettyman tweeted about it days ago. But man, that time in bed was amazing and not just because it actually made me feel rested for the first time in days.
I laid there thinking about the way my body has felt while I was sick. I considered the things that I knew saved me from being more sick than other people were. I considered the reasons that I felt terrible at the moments that I did. This morning a bottle of juice that was too full of sugar could be felt in my veins in a way that made me feel terrible and uncomfortable. It was a shoddy replacement for the all-natural morning smoothie that I have grown accustomed to. I started thinking about the fact that I might forego getting a gym membership and a personal trainer in favor of spending the month my parents are in Hawaii using our home to get in touch with what my body needs. It may sound cheesy but we've got a Wii and Wii Fit has some really great exercises and some beginning yoga moves for me to start testing my body with. Easy to do while mom and dad aren't around to help provide the childcare I need to find time for that sort of thing. But as I was in bed visualizing yoga moves and having the time and space to let myself dance when I felt it or use my new hula hoop when I am compelled, my entire body started to feel the would-be effects of what those things would have on me. It was almost like I was transported to a time ahead when those things weren't just a thought in my mind but a reality in my movement. It's so hard to explain but that 30 minutes where my mind was suspended and slowing down time really helped me realize just how much I want these amazing things in my routine. I'm so looking forward to a month of just me and my daughter, ushering in some of these new changes that we don't have the room for when this house is crowded with all four of us.
I'm ready for it. Bring it on.
That (almost) hour was so weird. The first 15 minutes felt like two hours. The next 15 minutes felt even longer. Finally I fell asleep but was woken up only about 45 minutes into my nap by her asking me if i wanted my split pea soup now that grandma was home with a can of it. I decided to get up at that point because I've had a hankering for split pea ever since Tristan Prettyman tweeted about it days ago. But man, that time in bed was amazing and not just because it actually made me feel rested for the first time in days.
I laid there thinking about the way my body has felt while I was sick. I considered the things that I knew saved me from being more sick than other people were. I considered the reasons that I felt terrible at the moments that I did. This morning a bottle of juice that was too full of sugar could be felt in my veins in a way that made me feel terrible and uncomfortable. It was a shoddy replacement for the all-natural morning smoothie that I have grown accustomed to. I started thinking about the fact that I might forego getting a gym membership and a personal trainer in favor of spending the month my parents are in Hawaii using our home to get in touch with what my body needs. It may sound cheesy but we've got a Wii and Wii Fit has some really great exercises and some beginning yoga moves for me to start testing my body with. Easy to do while mom and dad aren't around to help provide the childcare I need to find time for that sort of thing. But as I was in bed visualizing yoga moves and having the time and space to let myself dance when I felt it or use my new hula hoop when I am compelled, my entire body started to feel the would-be effects of what those things would have on me. It was almost like I was transported to a time ahead when those things weren't just a thought in my mind but a reality in my movement. It's so hard to explain but that 30 minutes where my mind was suspended and slowing down time really helped me realize just how much I want these amazing things in my routine. I'm so looking forward to a month of just me and my daughter, ushering in some of these new changes that we don't have the room for when this house is crowded with all four of us.
I'm ready for it. Bring it on.
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