Boys.

In my head, I've been making up the kind of guy I want to fall in love with. I think about the kind of man I want him to be, the things I want him to be interested in, the kind of music I'd want him to like (or at least try to), the kind of activities we could do together. I haven't fallen in love with someone since I was 19 years old. As a bonafide adult I've never met and fallen in love with someone. I've never dated in my entire life. From 17-19 I had one boyfriend. From 19-25 I had another boyfriend/husband. I have been on my own for three years. I miss having something else. I miss having someone else. But I sure as hell won't find that doing what I'm doing now. I am not part of a community. I don't involve myself around people who aren't either in my office or my home. I'm never going to find anyone like this. It's just tough to know where to start.