My ability to stay committed has been challenged and challenged again in 2010. I have not lived up to most of my promises to myself and I can feel that disappointment in my steps. To check in...
1. I Will Be Present, Be Love, Be Positive and Be Grateful: I try. I really do. But I find myself having more and more difficulty, as I focus too much on what was or what is come to be. I struggle at work to embrace challenge with a smile and my best foot forward. Every day I'm committed and every day I try but more often than not, I lose. I continue to persist, though. I will prevail!
2. I Will Commit To Getting Fit: I haven't done a work out in over a month and a half. Yeesh! I stopped doing my yoga. I haven't hula hooped. Bad news.
3. I Will Consider What I'm Eating: Another fail. Sugar has consumed me again. Soda, treats, etc. I can't seem to stop. I am trying to find the will power to get ahead but I find that every day the temptation of what is in my kitchen overpowers me. I am hoping that when I move out in August and have control over what items are in my fridge, this will become easier. I have made a promise to my daughter to take some cooking classes so that I can feed her well when we are just the two of us. Not just eating cereal, sandwiches and things in boxes. I will make myself able to COOK for my little girl.
4. I Will Get Rid of Plastic Bottles: I HAVE REMAINED COMMITTED! And I feel good about it every day. That Klean Kanteen is a regular part of my every day now.
5. I Will Be Passion: I have long since given up on Project 365 and haven't paid much attention to my camera or my new flip cam. But. I Am That Girl is on fire in Seattle. We meet every Sunday and we're such an incredible strength in this community. This week we took a break for Easter and I find myself craving that amazing unity in girl power. It's truly inspiring. I want to join the SurfRider foundation and a thousand other volunteer groups. I need to not bite off more than I can chew but I feel destined to make a change in this world.
6. I Will Travel: The ever wavering variable. Heidi and I are no longer going to New York or Cancun. I'm trading in our travels in May for a trip to San Antonio to see two of my best friends. It'll be an amazing trip to have to be with the people I love. My San Diego trip is still on the books and this weekend I started entertaining the idea of taking Mia with me. LegoLand, zoo, aquarium, beach. It could be an amazing thing to do with my little girl. However, today I've started reflecting on the true cost of what it will be to move out in August and I find myself wondering if the more responsible thing would be to cancel San Diego in favor of that money going toward our life.
7. I Will Be On My Own: Less than four months to go! Holy shiz! I'm doing estimates now on how much I need to spend to make us comfortable. I refuse to bring my savings account under $5k. Hopefully we can do this AND our trip in July.
8. I Will Read More and Twiddle Less: I was rocking it until about mid-March. I've been so busy and my reading took a hit because of it. Still haven't finished reading Eat, Pray, Love and I have so many other books lined up. Yowza.
There's lots of room to improve here. I know I can do it.
1. I Will Be Present, Be Love, Be Positive and Be Grateful: I try. I really do. But I find myself having more and more difficulty, as I focus too much on what was or what is come to be. I struggle at work to embrace challenge with a smile and my best foot forward. Every day I'm committed and every day I try but more often than not, I lose. I continue to persist, though. I will prevail!
2. I Will Commit To Getting Fit: I haven't done a work out in over a month and a half. Yeesh! I stopped doing my yoga. I haven't hula hooped. Bad news.
3. I Will Consider What I'm Eating: Another fail. Sugar has consumed me again. Soda, treats, etc. I can't seem to stop. I am trying to find the will power to get ahead but I find that every day the temptation of what is in my kitchen overpowers me. I am hoping that when I move out in August and have control over what items are in my fridge, this will become easier. I have made a promise to my daughter to take some cooking classes so that I can feed her well when we are just the two of us. Not just eating cereal, sandwiches and things in boxes. I will make myself able to COOK for my little girl.
4. I Will Get Rid of Plastic Bottles: I HAVE REMAINED COMMITTED! And I feel good about it every day. That Klean Kanteen is a regular part of my every day now.
5. I Will Be Passion: I have long since given up on Project 365 and haven't paid much attention to my camera or my new flip cam. But. I Am That Girl is on fire in Seattle. We meet every Sunday and we're such an incredible strength in this community. This week we took a break for Easter and I find myself craving that amazing unity in girl power. It's truly inspiring. I want to join the SurfRider foundation and a thousand other volunteer groups. I need to not bite off more than I can chew but I feel destined to make a change in this world.
6. I Will Travel: The ever wavering variable. Heidi and I are no longer going to New York or Cancun. I'm trading in our travels in May for a trip to San Antonio to see two of my best friends. It'll be an amazing trip to have to be with the people I love. My San Diego trip is still on the books and this weekend I started entertaining the idea of taking Mia with me. LegoLand, zoo, aquarium, beach. It could be an amazing thing to do with my little girl. However, today I've started reflecting on the true cost of what it will be to move out in August and I find myself wondering if the more responsible thing would be to cancel San Diego in favor of that money going toward our life.
7. I Will Be On My Own: Less than four months to go! Holy shiz! I'm doing estimates now on how much I need to spend to make us comfortable. I refuse to bring my savings account under $5k. Hopefully we can do this AND our trip in July.
8. I Will Read More and Twiddle Less: I was rocking it until about mid-March. I've been so busy and my reading took a hit because of it. Still haven't finished reading Eat, Pray, Love and I have so many other books lined up. Yowza.
There's lots of room to improve here. I know I can do it.
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